| - graduation friends forever wow wow wow. its been a while. i never thought i would end my high school career like i did. but i have no regrets what so ever. i am done. i am goin to college. i am moving on. im excited, confused, happy, scared, sad... everything at once. im going to be 18 in 2 weeks. it seems like so long ago that i dreamed of being this age. in 5th grade i remember the 8th graders looking so big and aspiring to be like them. and now i have surpassed that. and i am GROWN. im an adult... well almost. big ups to my girls that are now 18 chanstar and kram! jackie and i will be there soon enough. jackie's bday is the 12th and mine is the 20th...same day as ricky pike. he better get me a gift. lol jk.
well summer is here.
my last summer.
LAST.
everything.. and yes i mean EVERYTHING will be so different after this.
no more "hey sam lets go to ramova", no more "hey sam can you meet my by the choir room", no more being labeled highschoolers. wow. this hasnt hit me. and i know its been hitting a lot of ppl lately. i havent cried.. maybe i should, maybe i shouldnt. maybe i wont until the day that i move out of my house and into my OWN apartment...(well forget about that cuz im crying now) the day that i say goodbye to my best friends. (not saying im ditching them) goodbye to the hill. to the back of the school. to the parties we had at josh's house, to every homecoming and every dance that we all got crunk at. goodbye to the lunch dates, to the halsted bus and the red line that we took everyday. to bucky's *twinkle twinkle ur a star* and abercrombie so close. well maybe it shouldnt be goodbye. maybe it should be see you later. if that makes any sense. but it truly is goodbye because we will never be this age again and feel the way we did about these things.
well after thinking about all of this. and thinking of how much im gonna miss it. well it really sucks. no longer will i be able to depend on my parents for everything. i wish i could pack up my best friends with me and have them there with me. so much of me wants to stay in chicago becaue this is home. bridgeport is home. my friends are my home and my comfort. but i guess its time for me to step out of my comfort zone. i will be challenged everyday of my life whether or not to stay in champaign or to move back home.
i just hope that i dont regret things that i do. that i learn from my mistakes that i will be making... because i already know i will make a lot.... i hope i do accomplish my goals and never settle for less. and grow in everyway i can...
here you go... this is the song that is supposed to make u cry... kara sorta hates it though.
vitamin c - graduation
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
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